Hello KnF friends!!
I was reading past journal entries this morning from the days of 07, 08, and 09....5 yrs ago to now has been EPIC! I mean, I was craaazzzy, insecure, frustrated, confused, and purpose driven all at the same time!! :-)
I was trying so hard to find the light while i was in the "dark." There was such an absence of divine wisdom and strategy! But i wanted better! I wanted more. Real real bad. lol It's like a little baby trying to walk:-) It's actually really funny to me when i look back at it now... **inserts laughter**
So if you're out here in the dark trying to find the light, be encouraged!!! You're going to come out of that foolish talk, unproductive thinking, and mediocre living! God has much better for you then what you're experiencing. Butcha gotta be focused and diligent! Your hunger has to over take you and send you into overdrive!
He's never left you. He'll always be there with you! He'll meet you right where you are, to bring you to a better more fulfilling life. Full of joy, peace, purpose, love, happiness, healthy relationships! He can't let go! :-)
David, in Psalms 139:7-8 said to God in prayer,"Where can i go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from your presence? If I ascend up into heaven, you are there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, you are there..." As jacked up as David was!!! An adulterer, a murderer, a womanizer!! But God Himself called David "a man after My own heart!"(Acts 13:22). Like David, I knew my lifestyle was flawed and it wasn't Gods best, so I was chasing after who I knew was right, wise, and all knowing! Only He could lead me to what i was so desperately wanting!! It's not enough to just live day by day angry, frustrated, confused, hurt, insecure. That's not life. That's what i call settling.
Jesus you're amazing.
All for Love,
Jaz
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